My senior year of high school one of my friends sang a song called "Stars and the Moon". A couple of years later I found that song on youtube as sung by a very talented young lady whom I have had the pleasure of working with. Now for the past couple years I've been listening to this song every once in a while when the mood struck me and I've always wondered about the last line about her never being able to have the moon. I always interpreted it as the singer being bored with the conventional, albeit very comfortable, life she had chosen. She had rejected more seemingly transient and adventurous relationships because she wanted a glamorous life. Then when she finally got that glamorous life, she realized that it wasn't all it was cracked up to be.
I finally understand it. It's not about the money. It's about the actual relationship. She doesn't want the moon as a monetary possession, but rather as an impossible goal that keeps you striving and growing. The other two men in the song promise her hope, fidelity, and future that involves both personal and interpersonal growth. They are offering the chance to explore both the world and herself and she thinks she just wants a life that was predictable and stable.
I've been in the stable relationship thinking it would do me good to have someone whom I could always rely on. And it did do me good, don't get me wrong, but the relationship began to grow stagnant. I can't pinpoint when it started happening nor can I tell you why it happened because we both tried to keep things fresh and exciting. I know that I'll sound very cold for saying this, but it's true, I outgrew him just like one outgrows clothes or books, or TV shows, or really anything for that matter. It doesn't reflect on how he treated me or his personality. It was time.
I do understand that he's upset and is very bitter right now, as he has every right to be, but I do hope in time he realizes that there was nothing he could do. He did his very best. We had some great times and I will always cherish those times. I hope he understands that someday...
Introducing the new Weaponized Culture
11 years ago
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ReplyDeleteI've kept silent as much as I can for the past week so that I could reflect both on the relationship and the impact that you had on my life. In all honesty, I was not expecting to get back to you as quickly as I did. I thought the brooding process would require a great many months. However, I feel that the time to break the silence is now.
One thought has always stuck in my mind throughout the past week, and you mentioned it in your post - that it's unfortunate that things ended the way they did. We had made a great number of plans for our reunion at the end of Christmas break. As a result, I've come to blame myself a great deal for how things turned out, even though you claim I am not at fault.
Yet the fact of the matter remains that I am still appreciative for everything. My only regret is that I did not allow you more freedom to be yourself. I have all the fond memories I could have wanted as well as the experience that comes with it, and am ready to move on to the next phase of our friendship, one which has the strength and the solidarity to last for the rest of our lives.
I welcome you back into my life with open arms.
See you on Tuesday when I drop the CD off. :)
I'm looking forward to this next chapter in our lives. I guess it's still you who's out there :)
DeleteI will always be here. I promised that right from the start. My absence did not change the fact that I would still be there for you.
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